today i am homesick

today i am homesick.

everything reminds me of home.

i saw a truck today with "lark" written boldly on the side.

it reminded me of playing video games with my brother two weeks before i left for school again

and of kneeling on the cool hardwood floor,

indenting my knees

watching my dad shoot at aliens on our normal sized tv. 

when i filled my water bottle today, 

it reminded me of how my mom would fill my water bottle up all the way to the top before i left for school.

i don't remember the last time i filled it up like that.

i'm feeling homesick today. 

i miss my mom's cooking

and the click click click clickclickclickclickclick of the computer keyboard

and the accompanying exclamations.

i miss laying awake late at night, straining to hear the hum of the refrigerator. 

i miss waking up early to go on grocery shopping trips and eating ramen across from my mom, though i know my stomach'll hurt later.

today i'm feeling homesick. i hope it goes away soon.